I realized that I have nothing to live for. Absolutely nothing.
I don't know what the hell I'm thinking, making these unattainable goals for myself. I've always known that I'd never reach them... I don't know who I was trying to fool.
Once again, I've learned that by being happy, I'm just setting myself up for a harder fall later on. I can't keep doing this. I don't even know what to do. I'm fucking lost.

Summer's almost over. School's about to start, and once again, I have no fucking clue how my tuition's gonna get paid off. No student loan this year.

Fuck.